it's been awhile

so i haven't updated in forever, and for this i apologize...however, i haven't had any new revelations lately...does this mean that God's not speaking to me?? no, i don't think so...rather i'm at a point where i'm just basking in what i do know about him and his love for me and am taking life one day at a time....so should i update everday saying "guess what!!! God loves me and thinks i'm beautiful"....i think not, one blog like that is enough and i'd venture to say that most of you feel the same way.....

However, Sunday the pastor at church said something that stuck with me

God's love gives us confidence

i've never thought of it like this before, of maybe i have and i just forgot...but it's so true.....even if we are lacking in confidence about everything about us, we can be confident in ONE thing....that God loves us and while i know that i just stated in the first paragraph that i didn't want to blog about God's love everyday....well, that's the face that he's been showing to me....

awhile ago i had trouble with the concept of growth as a Christian, there only seemed to be so much that could be done...i mean after you fix everything that's obviously screwed up in your life what's next??? my wise RA mentioned in the beginning of the year at the Bible study, this very quandary....once you've been with Christ for awhile, what's next?? she pointed out that God has so many different faces, different aspects...that you just have to wait to see which one he will show you next (getting to know God so-to-speak)...make sense?? so after fixing things and getting on track, we need to ask God to show himself to us in a new way....b/c part of having a real relationship with someone is getting to know them on different levels and seeing their many faces...etc

ok so at the beginning of this year, God showed me that he has everything under control
and that i need to trust him....and now, moving back to my original point, he's basically showing me that he loves me

and going along with that...b/c his love gives me confidence, not only in myself as who he created me to be but also in the hope that he brings and the joy that he gives, i can live day to day basking in his presence without wondering "what if i don't have what it takes today?? what if God's getting bored/impatient/sick of me"

oh yes, it's a good feeling......the end