Refuge....where??

i've been here over a week...9-10 days to be exact and things have been great and not-so-great and everything in between

basically i know two things 1) i say basically WAAAAY too much and 2) God is my refuge and always will be

it's so easy to become busy...especially when you're moving into a new place and have two jobs (soon to be three) one that you like but stresses you out and one that takes you away from your fav part of the week...sunday mornings (sigh).....and along with the busyness comes fear of the unknown, doubt in your abilities and in your current decisions, anxiousness about what happens next, and lonliness caused by having no friends here....and all those negative feelings tend to consume you when you're busy and have no time to sit and think about how much you've been blessed....

but guess what?? Nothing can separate me or you or anyone from the love of God....nothing, not even busyness...not even doubt or fear or anxiousness or lonliness....His love surrounds you and me and frees us from all those stressful things

i tend to forget simple, basic truths like that when i get consumed in my current situations (whatever they may be)...i get overwhelmed with the here/now and forget that i don't have to be...HE has it all under control, HE knows what's going on, and HE is my refuge....he's here with me every second of everyday.....(random insert...when i think of Him as a refuge i see a tree, a great big tree standing in the middle of a field, one that you would run to for shade, to escape from the rain, or just to get away from everything)

know what's cool?? He's there when i fall asleep with the lamp on and my bedroom door locked b/c i'm afraid of my creaky house....he's there when i read for hours in the sun room...he's there when i sell knives and he's there when i become frustrated over having no appointments....he's even there when i talk to my fish.....and he protects me and lifts my burdens every step of the way

yeah ya'll (there's that accent) know that ugh...i'm the worry, stress, and spaz queen at times and i get frustrated with myself when i don't do something right the first time or don't get a concept right away.....and remember those different faces of God that i mentioned earlier?? Let me list them....so far God can be trusted completely, God loves me, and now....He's my refuge here in WV and everywhere, for that matter....and now the spaz queen is going to let go and rest in the glorious shade of God's branches

....the end